Maybe one of these days I’ll work up the courage to tell everyone everything about me.. Maybe they’ll begin to understand why I am the way I am. All the events in your life shape you to be the person that you are, right? I’m not saying I’m the only one that’s found so misunderstood, because believe me, I know I’m only about .1% of the people that are. All that I’m trying to get accross here, is maybe you shouldn’t think before you get to know someone. When you think you create many statements and opinions in your mind, some can be good, but we all know most are hurtful. We dont’ know if a persons cut, attempted suicide, been through hell and back, etc. so why do we find the need to judge them? GIRLS especially.. I can’t pick a girl out of any of my friends that I’ve always liked, which is pretty pathetic.. But I know I’m not the only one who does this.. We all judge people, but it’s not even right. It’s ridiculous. but maybe one of these days, we’ll alll open up to eachother and tell eachother all that we’ve been through, all that has torn us to part, and all that has shaped us.. Maybe then we’ll be able to be happy.

Ha shit.. Who am I kidding?

Before that I didn’t have to make a seperate blog without any followers so that I could write my personal problems feelings and thoughts. It’s ridiculous and I’m so sick of being judged, I don’t find it fair at all. THIS IS THE ONLY THING I HAVE TO MY OWN.

I had a notebook, my mom read it.. So when I say this is the only thing I truly mean it. I’d much rather not have any of you girls from burnsville following me. I hate that you are, unless I happened to follow you first, or given you my url. I’m so sick of you all.

#1 reason I hate school and don’t like going; YOU PEOPLE

gottastorytotell:

It makes me feel like I’m not good enough or my expectations are set extremely high.  I want to be more then friends. I get giddy when I talk about you to people that know and even though you’re everything that I’ve wanted in a guy, I can never have you and it sucks because I don’t want to look anymore, is that horrible? I’m a horrible person aren’t I.. I’m doing it to myself. 

 I know exactly how you feel and it fucking sucks.